i used to ask myself that question all the time. in fact, many mornings i would blankly stare at my closet. sometimes i'd try on several different things. i tend to dress for my mood, which can vary from sassy country girl to wanting to look elegant to hiking attire to trendy to flirty....my mood can be known to change during this process from flirty to frumpy girl!
so when i had to narrow down my closet to 7 items i was a bit overwhelmed. honestly, even though i had a month to think about it i chose not to. i did by a skirt in preparation. shorts have kind of become something i hate to wear because i can't find any that i look good in. i love this little gray skirt and have plans to make some more for myself. anyways....
i started on monday. so monday morning i just pulled out some items and said here we go. then i realized that this isn't practical in northern indiana in june. i selected: jeans/capri's (i roll them up for capri), gray skirt, pink/grey striped tee, white elbow length cardigan, aqua tee, yellow blouse, white tank for under yellow blouse, purple shirt that i got at a garage sale, and a gray tee. this shouldn't be too bad. flip flops and tennis shoes. i managed to get to 9 items.
then i had to go weed our garden. nothing on my list was really appropriate so i decided that i should be able to have one work in the yard/exercise outfit. then the temps dropped to like 50 degrees so i decided to add in a fleece.
still - not too bad right? so now, being 7 days into it. i do find it rather freeing. i really don't have to give much thought to what i am wearing. just put on whatever shirt i didn't wear yesterday, or which ever one happens to be clean and off i go. what you need to understand is that when i volunteered at the school on fridays i was always sure to not where the same thing back to back fridays. i think i'm starting to see a trend with some weird obsessions of mine. ironically, as i'm preparing for Creator Camp i'm studying 1 Samuel 16:7 which clearly states that the Lord doesn't look at our outer appearance, but at our heart. gee....i think God is revealing that my heart isn't as pretty to look at as i once thought.
why do i get so consumed in what i wear? why does it matter if i repeat clothes? i whined about needing a sweatshirt and added one in. you know what? there are people who are cold all the time and while they may want to "whine" about being cold (i use whine as my term - not what they really do) they don't have the luxury of going to their closet and saying, "gee, i didn't know it was supposed to get cold, i think i'll add in a sweatshirt!" they don't have one to add in.
i had chosen discover as my word of the year. God is definitely helping me discover the hurt in the world, my pride, my feeling of entitlement, my ease of life, and my discomfort. but mostly God is helping me discover the sin in my heart and that confession and change is hard, but oh so good.....
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